I`m So Not Alone

May sakit ka mahal? Anu `yun? Bakit? May gamot ka na mahal? Musta pakiramdam mo? Pahinga ka na mahal ko, para gumaling ka na, kain ka mabuti, wag ka papagutom, `wag ka na muna magpupuyat para lumakas ka... ingat ka na lang mahal ko...i love you

- Jamica Agapito, 26 April 2011

Mabuti pa si mahal ko, sobrang nag-aalala sa kalagayan ko. Hindi naman malala, pero siyempre iba pa rin talaga yung may nag-aalaga. At siya lang yung mayroon ako ngayon. Salamat kasi kahit paano, nababawasan yung bigat ng nararamdaman ko. Salamat, Mica.

20April`11: Mickath`s Seventh

It`s Mica and I`s 7th week! Yay! This is so special to us, specially to Mica kong mahal `cos 7 is her favourite number. I really have no idea on how I can make her extra happy this week. There are a lot of things I still don`t know about her -- her favourite stuff, things that make her happy... that`s why I`m having a difficult time to think on what I should give her this week. I seriously don`t want to disappoint her `cos she`s so excited for this 7th week. I want her to be happy and I guess I just did.

We don`t usually meet on Wednesdays because we both have work but since this 7th is special, we really make it a point to meet and hang-out. This relationship is cute, I swear. It feels like we`re really a couple... like we really are together. But we actually aren`t. We`re just enjoying our moments together and somehow acting like we really are one. Just because we`re enjoying and having fun doesn`t mean everything is just a joke and none of it wasn`t real, we do love each other, as friends, the best-buddy-kind-of-friends, and we call each other Mahal. It`s really cute and sweet.

So I gave her these for this week:

A pretty silver ribbon earrings. I super liked it like personally, and so I gave it to her instead be used by me.

A self-made poem using her initials.

A three-paged letter

A doodle I made with a quote about love and weirdness I read on Tumblr

A pattern of my right hand, Mica`s favourite thing to do.

A copy of a letter I made before. A letter for my future boyfriend. ;-)
A printed cutie-patootie photo I found on Tumblr that expresses how I wish she`s with me.
This is the envolope I`ve used with my packaged letters

Go Get A Girlfriend

I sometimes wish you go get a girlfriend. Like now. I know that will hurt me deeply into the bones. But I think that`s the only way to get things better. I may be hurting but I think that`s the only way I can finally tell myself, that you`ll never be mine... that I can finally let you go. But you getting a girlfriend makes me think things will be at its best. `Cos I`m still hoping, that when that time comes you have a girlfriend, you`ll realize something... this may sound mean but I am hoping you`ll realize that she`s not enough, that she`s different, that it`s not love. I wish you`ll realize that you`re happier whenever you`re with me. I wish you`ll realize it was me you really love. And yes, that leaves us to two options. So please, go get a girlfriend.

Date a girl who takes photographs

Date a Girl Who Takes Photographs

Date a girl who takes photographs. Date a girl whose favorite sound is the click-click of the shutter as it closes and opens to capture a memory. Date a girl who sees the wonder in the simplest things. Date a girl who looks at the world and wonders how to put a little of herself in it.

You might find her in the park, lost behind her lens, the world a blur around her as she tries to capture a single moment in time. You might find her in an exhibit, a look of concentration on her face as she contemplates a photograph that called out to her as she was passing by. Or maybe you will find her in a bookstore, a book in her lap as she pores over photographs of weddings all the while wondering what hers would look like.

Take her out to photo walks and laugh as she tries to take a picture of you. When she gets tired of walking, buy her cupcakes but wait until she has taken pictures of them before proceeding to eat them. Listen as she tells you her ideas for a photo shoot on the ride home.

Take her to a restaurant and wait patiently as she surveys the menu carefully, appreciating the food photography. And again, wait until she has taken a photo of your food before digging in. Allow her introduce you to Ansel Adams while you both eat your lunch. Introduce her to your favorite musician as you wait for the bill to arrive. When you get home, change your Facebook profile picture into a photograph she took of you. She silently hoped for it.

Take stolen shots of her. Compile it and give it to her on her birthday. Tell her you love her over and over until your voice replaces the click of the shutter as her favorite sound. Kiss her after she lifts her head up from the camera. Give her camera-shaped necklaces. Go places with her.

You will never be bored again.

Date a girl who takes photographs. She will never whine about a little dirt on her favorite pair of jeans as she kneels down to get a better angle of her subject. She will never be afraid to take adventures with you. She will take photographs of you not just with her camera but with her mind as well and keep it to herself to admire at night. But above all, she will teach you how to look at the world with a brand new perspective and she will do that unknowingly.

Marry a girl who takes photographs. Ditch those wedding photography books and give her the most beautiful wedding you could. She will teach your kids to find the beauty in everything just as she had taught you. Every day will be an adventure as she tries to create memories photograph-worthy with you. She may wake you up in the middle of the night because she is buzzing with ideas but she will make it up in the morning with a stack of hot pancakes beside a steaming cup of your favorite coffee blend.

Grow old with a girl who takes photographs. Sit with her on the front porch as you both pore over the bits and pieces of the moments you’ve had together. Stroke her hair as you both relive the photo walks that you took and the places you have been when you were both young. Smile as you both reenact your clever wedding vows.

Date a girl who takes photographs because she will always see that “something” in the most “nothing” of things. She will never let anyone take you away from her like she never lets anyone steal her photos and that is just one of the evidences that she loves you.